That thing you think you should be over

That thing you think you should be over.
That one that keeps showing up, even after you said you were done with it once and for all. 
Maybe it’s a story about worth. Or laziness. Or safety. 
Maybe it’s a fear of being seen. Being left. Being alone.
Maybe it’s a stuckness that tangles you up right before the newness begins. You can do all the work in the world to heal it and it may still be there. 
Because healing is not the absence of symptoms. Healing is a shift in perspective. 
Healing is the refusal to enter a war with your Self. 
Healing is the willingness to embrace every piece of who you are, yes including that one that you thought you fixed long ago.
But that piece is still there. 
It may always be. 
It may rise up in need. 
It may bring attention to its ancient aches. 
It may speak to you in whatever language it has been taught, including shame and anger. The goal is not get rid of any part of you. You can’t, even if you tried.
All of you is all of you. And that part...the part that has been hurt...is still a part of your experience.
The healing happens when you see it and stop running from it. 
The healing happens when you stop believing its story to be true. 
The healing happens when you love that part of your Self just as it is. In the middle of its being exactly who it is. 
If you are willing to be different with that experience...if you are willing to learn that is showing you the way to what you need...if you are willing to listen to your depths...healing happens. 
And that is when you become more of your Self than ever before.